Personal Journaling

I had figured I would reflect on the election results for this week's reflection. But, now that my time to reach this personal goal has come, I do not want to focus on that. What I have to say is futile. Although I do not like the results, I can see why it happened. It connects to ideas I have been studying for the past year. But, it feels too raw to explore that now. I have gone on social media since the results, but I have tried limiting my time. I'm seeing a lot of pain, but I'm also seeing a lot of futile acts that have no impact on what happened or will happen. I wrote a response on my Facebook page, but I understand and appreciate that I have a limited audience there. I couldn't handle a larger audience, nor could I speak to one intelligently. That is not my interest. 

I do personal journaling on a mostly daily routine. That is for me and for my eyes only at the moment. It helps me get through my week by exploring what happened and what is coming up on the horizon.

I post a journal entry for my research course every week. I did mine today. The last day of the learning week is when that tends to emerge. I finished the main assignment for the week yesterday and was in a place today to write that reflection. Then in my leadership course we are supposed to be keeping a personal journal based on prompts. This week my entry was pretty scarce. I did not pull much from the week. Nothing felt particularly exciting. I understood it for what it was, but I was not able to extrapolate brilliant thoughts from it. That is nothing new for me. It's why I'm not a thought leader. The personal journaling is to be turned into a two-page reflection on what I am learning about myself as a leader. We'll see how that goes when it's due next month. 

This writing is shit. But, I put out a goal to create a post per week, and thus far I have held onto the commitment, at least. I'm not sure if I will even publish this, much less promote it. My last post has had nine clicks, so my audience is minimal. Is this even worth it? Is it just another item to tick off a list? This blog is not what I want it to be, but I'm not yet ready to abandon it completely. Maybe it will actually grow in content as my circumstances continue to change. 

It has been a month since I applied for a position, and I have not heard anything about it. My one online course officially starting January 22nd is already full. I still have 40 days remaining this semester. I will continue to show up for my classes as best I can in that time.